change

recently, met with one of my good friend. mashaAllah. it was brief but it left quite an impact. we had lunch. the meal was simple yet fulfilling. alhamdulillah. conversation was so real yet pleasant. zye was wif me. she mentioned something which i have not heard for a long time. which i personally choose to ignore & brushed it aside before. looking through my eyes, she said i've changed. changed, after i've adorned the niqab. i hope it's a good change, inshaAllah. yeah. dat's what she said. change- fahlia is back being the real fahlia whom she had known back in poly. mashaAllah. after hearing that... i think i kinda miss that fahlia too. e one with 'peace no war' logo in her head. e one with 'miss relak aje' title. e one with full of passion... trying her very best to accomplish what she believes. e one who yearns to study e deen. subhanAllah.

so, where was e real fahlia all this while? probably, she was submerged in the cosmopolitan, corporate, working world. Allahualam. well, she's not lost completely. but maybe, just got lost in transition. it's true what our beloved prophet sallahualaihi wassalam had advised. you are who your friends are. this is not the hadith but just a jist of the meaning. e environment shapes you. who you are, how you think, how you dress & etc. if it's good, alhamdulillah. but if it's not, nauzubillah. it's even scaring when you think of it now. Allahu mustaan. dat's why the parents (e.g environment) are responsible of shaping the lives of their children. with proper aqeedah & manhaj, inshaAllah.

alhamdulillah, ala kulli hal. i love being who i am today... who i am now. Allahu akhbar. Allah taala has always been there to SAVE me. PROTECT me. GUIDE me. LOVE me. HELP me. my deepest gratitude for giving me good companions along the way. ALHAMDULILLAH. for providing me with well- needed advises, necessary reminders, undiminishing love, listenings ears, shoulders to cry & warmth hugs.

wAllahi, i don't regret with what that has happened to me. i've seen the blessings beyond them. subhanAllah. i know more blessings would come soon. i'm ready to face whatever may come, inshaAllah.

p/s: dear fellow readers, i'm taking a break for awhile from updating my blog after the 10 days Ramadhan. in due time, i'll be back. inshaAllah.

love u lots for Allah's sake =)